Cuddly-Buddy

2011-07-03T10:20:00.001-07:00

Hey

Can you hear my hear just crack? Can you heart the despair that is flowing through it? i guess not cause even when i'm going low as to kill my own feelings for you.. Make you happy when im down.. Smile for you when deep inside it's slowly building up.. you still won't know what i'm trying to do..

My words are a piace of advie and not for shooting you or making you feel sad.. it was suppose to make you realise and choose the right path.. But different people have different way of thinking cause that's how they are.. I think i'm going to burst sooner or later if this continues and i'm sure you will also say you will too..

What i have done will go down the drain and wash away what we had back then and bring fourth strangers between us..

Just a glimpse of you is what i need or wanted but you're scared to trust me.. Your voice makes my heart warm but now it makes it blacker.. Where is your sweetness.. I'm really out of words to say.. My heart will stop beating if this continues and i hope that you will find a person that is better than me cause i don't think i'm good enough for you..

I'm just a boy with potential but a potential to make you fall and suffer in despair.. Before it's too late.. would like to say i'm sorry for what i have done.. and even soo you will say i have heard that more than once.. Haish.. I really am..

04/07/11

2011-07-02T15:32:00.000-07:00

Hey

Sorry for not blogging for a very very long long time.. Busy with school.. Work.. Love life.. Family.. Friends.. etc.. Plus my lappy was down.. Pfft..

HERE I GO!! It's going to be very long..

FAMILY!

Well.. My family have been doing well i suppose.. My brother ended his NS.. My second sister got married again.. My first sister don't know where the hell she is and my last sister don't know what is going on in her life..

My mom is fine but just recently that something happen between her and my last sister until she ask my last sister to move out.. As for me i'm just being neutral and see where did the problem arise from and where is all their mistate cause i don't believe that only 1 person makes mistake.. Everyone does.. Now my mom is staying alone with the husband and only him.. I hope she realise regretting that she choose her husband over her children..

My dad is getting married soon with the same girl he always quarrell.. I really don't know what else to sa about him just a little bit disappointed cause us as his children have already advice him but he still wants to pursue with her.. We can't say much.. As long he is happy we are ok with it.. just that we already know the outcome of the future we are going to have..

My first sister after marriage gone to god knows where.. Once in a while text.. Text also cause want to ask pay back the money.. For once can people or humans don't think bout money.. Come on.. You have your husband working full-time and you're at home sitting in front of the lappy.. Don't be LAZY for goodness sake.. If you know that you are tight in the pocket.. Go out and work.. Not to enjoy but for your children future.. But oh wells.. Its up to her now cause she's married..

My second sister.. Hmmm.. To me she's doing fine.. Got a husband that's hard working and don't want her to work cause she needs to take care of her children and his children.. But 1 thing is please don't scold the children like they owe you your life.. Don't yell and scream at them.. Don't hit them like you're hitting a toy.. Afterall they are still just a kid learning from their mistake slowly..

My brother is another thing.. Always with the GF.. Ask to do this then do.. Ask to fetch also fetch.. Haiya.. i can't say much about hime cause he's a grown boy now.. Eventually he'll wake up some day..

My last sister.. LAZY to the max.. I really don't know what she wants in life.. Whether want to work or school.. This is what happen if you don't listen to me or your dad and brother.. Want to work also keep changing job.. This don't like la.. That don't like la.. Come on.. There will always be politcs everywhere.. There is no work place without people bitching around.. There's only 1 place i know.. Graveyard.. You want to pursue studies go ahead work for your moeny and learn working hard not easy life then you will understand..

WORK!!

It's been a long time since i went back to wrok but once in awhile i will go and work to see the condition there.. I can say that it's not the same as before cause of the people there and i'm talking about all in neutral.. Please stop bitching around to stop all this.. Why must u bitch about people.. It's rather soothing to hear the good stuff bout people rather than the bad.. That is my thinking.. If people do the bad things don't follow just let it be eventually the will get tired of it.. i don't want to say much now cause i don't know the full story..

All i know is that i work there cause of someone but even though that doensn't guarantee that person will stay..

SCHOOL!!

Well.. I've not been to school for so freaking long cause i was having my IA and i miss the april intake orientaion now they won't know who is me.. haha... For attachment i weny to Keppel Log but got kick out cause never turn up for some days.. Well i don't blame them cause i want it that way.. The people there are so not friendly.. Everyday come to work not even a morning to them.. It's like work and more work..

But got into Singapore Mint.. The people there are like my 3rd family.. Soo funny and friendly.. I learn alot from them be it good or bad.. Haha.. I'm really going to miss them sooner or later.. Haha.. The job scope there is quite tight due to low of manpower.. For me.. But i think thats how they save ost by letting the worker there work more with low on manpower.. Pity them..

I miss my BLs alot.. i'm sure they miss me atleast to a certain point.. Haha.. Going back to school this coming monday and can't wait to meet my classmates.. They are soo hilarious plu at times irritating but that is what makes it more interesting learning in ITE.. haha

LOVE LIFE!!

Dear girl that i love soo much.. I didn't mean to hurt you.. I didn't mean to make you cry.. I didn't mean for all the things that i did to happen..

I know i'm an ass for hurting you always but letting you know i didn't do it on purpose.. Even though i knwo my words won't convince you cause i have hurt you soo very much and soo alot of times.. All i want is for you to be happy and live your life.. I think my life is with yoou now... Even when u re sad.. I will feel sad.. Even when you are down.. I will feel doen cause eventually it will affect me..

It's like all we did was argue and quarrell everyday.. Even you and i are tired of it.. even though we are trying to avoid the argument end up we will still argue.. Haish.. I've ever ask you this.. Are you tired of me? Do you still love me? will you leave me someday knowing that there are other guys out there? etc..

I would cut off my feelings of sadness and loneliness just to see you happy.. Whatever thethings that u want i will try my best t get it for you.. I will try my best to do it for you.. I will try my best not to commit any more words or action to make you cry.. Cause by seeing you cry it makes me feel that i have fail as a BF..

Its been more than a year that we are together and to me my love for you still remains even from all the quarrell we had.. It's hard not to love you cause you are special in a unique way plus i won't give up once i have set my eyes one it.. During a year we can laugh.. Joke around.. Cry.. etc.. But i feel now that i don't feel special.. I feel more like a friend sometimes.. Maybe cause i miss you being sweet.. Being what i know u back then.. but even soo i can't look back cause maybe i made you this way and i'm to blame..

Every conversation we had there must be and argument.. All i'm trying to do is advice you not find fault.. I know feel that i'm finding fault but i'm not the type cause i believe in advising.. I really don't know what to do or say sometimes cause i'm scared that my words will hurt you.. My action will hurt you.. But i will not give up cause i know that once i give up then there is no point.

You want me to be possessive and i did.. Plus i don't like those who flirt with you and i know you have your limits.. But how would i feel knowing that someone is flirting with you.. How i wish he regret living cause he will meet hell soon.. Haiya.. i don't know what to do just hope and hope and hope..

I do care about you.. I do care bout your feelings.. I really do.. But i don't know.. I'm pouring all my hearts out here.. But i still feel not right knowing that you are still unhappy or will be.. I don't know how this will turn out to be.. but i hope the best for us and we will hand on.. Try our best and never give up cause there's no point if we give up.. all the tears we had.. All the moments we had gone just by a single word..

Thats bout all for today.. MF I love u

2010-10-30T18:57:00.000-07:00

Dear all.. Sorry for not blogging for a very very very long time, been busy with work, school and etc.. I know my blog have got spider web all over the place but i'll try to blog everyday okie. :)

WORK LIFE!!

Well.. Been working non stop for the past 2 weeks with only 1 off day due to lack of manpower, what do u expect when the i.c itself is i don't know what to say just speechless.. Supposedly to be off today but have to work cause been force to and also i kinda want to work cause my sweet MF is working today.. Can't let her work alone ryte.. :)

I miss Nicole, John, Meng Yeow, Daryl, Jeevi, etc.. Some of them quit due to serving National service and some quit cause they found a new jod and also can't take the i.c action and behaviour.. As for me i'm just working there to get money and also i love service line but how i wish that i would get in as a cabin crew.. Haha!'

I guess that's about all in the work life.. Nothing new and nothing old.. Samo samo.. :)

SCHOOL LIFE!!

Well.. To tell you the truth is that my school life s great but i'm not putting in more effort as i used to when i was in Nitec.. And i have nt been to school for the whole of 1 week.. WOW!! seriously i have never done that in my entire school life, be it primary, secondary or even Nitec.. I don't know what got into me.. Maybe i need someone to motivate me.. Maybe i need.. I don't know..

1st term have past and my GPA is what i expected as it is.. Haha! my 1st term GPA is 1.0.. Cool or what.. Call me crazy but it what i got, my standard frop big time.. Try to imagine from 3.7 to 1.0.. Alot of difference right.. Even my friend can't believe that, but oh wells.. what to do just accept the fact that H.Nitec is much more difficult to cope than Nitec..

That's all i guess for school..

LOVE LIFE!!

It has been 6 month and going to 7 soon and i am still soo much in love with MF.. There is ups and down in life but i appreciate and treasure u the most for being there for us and not letting go of the simple or hard argument.. It shows how much we love each other..

I just can't leave her for just a sec.. Even for a second i can miss he just like that.. Maybe sh cast a spell on me.. Haha! just kidding.. All i know and all i care to say and tell her is that no matter what comes in the future be it thick or thin.. Bitter or sour.. I will be there by here side supporting her and also comfort her as i always have been.. :)

On our 6 months anniversary was our date and i meant a real date cause actually we have never been to a proper date before.. HEhe.. Soo i make it clear to MF that we are going on a proper date and ask her o wear something special.. And there she was wearing something special that melts my heart.. Really.. HEhe.. I have already plan the date where to go what to buy for her and all but she doesnt believe me.. Haha!

Soo we went to eat at secret recipe at Marina Square as part of the plan.. Why eat there.. Because she's been saying that she wants to eat secret recipe for te past 1 or 2 month before our 6 month anni.. Then i thought of buying her a bracelet cause she lost 1 and 1 want it to be something that she wear 24/7 to reming her of that day we spend time together.. But end up didnt buy cause there aren't any nice one that she like..

That's about all i can remember.. And she will always make me laugh when she say the word 'FLAVLOUR' haha.. I Love U Baby! :)

Signing out
-Cuddly Buddy-

2010-07-10T09:53:00.000-07:00

Hey there...

Back on the story.. Haha... Not much to say today but i can try to type as much as i can.. :)

PERSONAL LIFE

Well... Nothing much today.. Just slack at home playing ipod while waiting for K to end work then fetch her home cause she's not feeling well.. Am i sweet or am i sweet.. :)

But yesterday was the day that i had so much fun.. Hehe... Met K at Far East Plaza and she was pissed at me cause i'm 20min late.. Hehe.. not on purpose though.. Hehe.. Timing was off that day.. :)

Ate at Sakura with K and some other friends then went hunting for her stuff at New Look.. After that walk to Dhoby Ghaut.. Wanted to buy some chippy snacks but thought of it.. Nah.. Cause later will be having dinner with Yiling and friends..

First to arrive was me and K.. Durh.. Then came Ruby.. Ming Chen.. Yiling and Bf and lastly Janna... :)

Ate at indulge The Cathay.. Till very full like stomach want to burst.. haha... Then cab to Boat Quay.. There we went pub to drink relax and have fun.. haha.. Played card game and i was called FREAK by miss janna.. Don't know why.. hahaha...

Went off around 3 then cab home.. Send K home then went home.. What a fun day that was.. hehe...

SCHOOL LIFE

Well... Not doing sooo good at school.. Failed 1 of my subject and i heard my attendance was 60%.. DAMN WORSE..... haiya.. I'm not quite sure what to do now cause i really don't get any self motivation nowadays and also from my freinds or family..

I guess thats all for today....

2010-07-04T00:14:00.000-07:00

Hey blog reader...

I'm BACK... HAha.. wow... Have not een updating blog for the past centuries or decades i guess.. haha.. Hmm.. Where should i begin.. There's alot of things have happen in my life... Well.. lets start with school life.. :)

SCHOOL LIFE

Well.. School have never been great but the thing i don't like about this year i s that schools start at 8.00am!!! WTH...!!! and my attendance is really not up to my expectation.. HAiya.. it's either i slack alot or due to the early lesson..

Ouh ya.. I guess you all know that i'm taking H.Nitec in Logistics right... Well... it's not that hard.. Just to much theory and all.. Soo boring.. I'm into practical and hands on... HEhe... Met new people as usual.. Classmates are all decent looking but really.. Looks can be deceiving.. Haha.. They're all crazy and wild.. Some of it i mean.. haha...

As always.. im the clown of the class.. Why does ithaveto happen to me.. Hehe.. Ouh well.. No harm being a clown right.. HEhe.. Ok.. CCA of this year would be CHEERLEADING & BRIDGE LEADER.. Well.. i know people say cheeleading are for gays and sissy but it's really tough ok.. Need to learn split and stuff.. Even my ball can get split.. haha...

Have not been going to training for the past... Hmm... Let me see... 2 months.. hehe.. busy with work and personal life.. Emm... Took my exam in the month of june and sadly i'm not gonna get A's.. It's soo not me.. dammit.. ouh well.. atleast a pass will do.. hahaha.... :)

New term going to start tomorrow and it's a confirm that i'm not going to school.. HEhe.. got Ahem ahem.. you know i know but public don't know.. actually you don't even know.. haha.. WTH.. this is when i really get bored of writing..

I guess that's about all regarding my school life.. anything just tag... tag.. and tag.. :)

WORK LIFE

Hmm... Nothing much just that have stupid mother ******* i.c who doesn't know how to pronounce properly and he's english... Oh god.. worse that my niece.. What the hell is going on in this world.. don't tell me he's still a baby... haha... ouh well... He is what he is.. But the chin.. Come on.. can it grow longer than that.. haha.. OMG i'm discriminating people in this blog.. ouh well.. Freedom of speech.. hehe... Well.. He's just not ready to be an i.c.. Well.. I guess that's enough about him.. :)

I wonder if i can keep this job cause of that stupid ass i.c.. Always puts personal life to work... haiya.. ouh well.. what to do.. WAiting for his last day thats when.. REVENGE.... HAha.... :)

Thats all about work life.. Nothing much actually cause i'm ok with all of my work colleagues.. :)

PERSONAL LIFE

Well.. This is my favourite subject.. hehe... Cause i'm IN LOVE.. Weee..... hehe...

Met this girl K for the first time at somewhere.. Then it caught my attention cause it kept running in my mind whether i know this girl K or just a familiar face.. Then she came down again.. and sat infront of me.. Kinda shy though cause she's sweet and stuff.. HEhe... At that time i kinda got a crush at her.. HEhe.. don't know why or how.. writing about her makes me smile non-stop.. Hehe...

Well.. story cut short ok..

Went out for the first time with K on 2 April 2010 together and watch the movie Ju-On White Ghost and Black Ghost at GV Vivo.. HEhe.. Watch the movie.. Kinda scary though.. Hehe.. but it's really funny that when u watch horror movie but when it comes to the scary part you cover your face.. Haha.. That's what K did.. Haha.. Been trying to hold on to her hands soo that she watch it but end up she close her eyes.. ouh well.. SCARY CAT.. hahaha... :)

Then the second outing with her supposedly to go tanning but it was raining that day soo we plan to watch REC2 at Vivo GV on the 10 April 2010.. While waiting for the sow to start we walk her and there.. And we sat at ths long couch.. My heart pumping really fast cause i really really like her.. Then that's when i make the move to ask her to be my GF.. That's when i really can't stop smiling and all and K like can't stop smiling and i know she's felt really shy after reading on the phone.. ouh ya.. i didnt say it cause K ask me to type on the phone.. Hehe.. All the way we watch watch the movie like shy couple and stuff but i know she's kinda scared wathign the movie cause she don't like bloody movie.. Soo i hug her.. Kinda shy though.. hehe.. Waited to her answer and only the next day she text me this..

It took me lots of courage to say this cause you know how shy am i..
i know you are still waiting for my answer and i wanted to tell you yesterday night but too bad i fell asleep first.
I just wanna tell you that i would love to be your GF as of yesterday actually :)

Once i read the text.. From sleepy turn to fresh.. Soo damn happy.. HEhe... Thats when we got closer and closer.. Hehe...

Went out to watch shutter island on the 17 April 2010 with K.. Before work.. we always watch movie before work.. Haha..

Then met K after her graduation on the 12 May 2010 at teban garden with her friends.. Then off to Marina Square GV wathc Ironman 2 till late night have supper with K at Al-Amin Marsiling... HEhe.. K look sooo hot with her office wear.. hehe.. Well.. She look hot in any cloth she wears.. hehe... :)

Watch The Last Song with K on 17 May 2010 at The Cathay.. It was a touching movie.. We even cry while watching it.. At first i didn't cry then i felt like my shoulder was kinda wet then i saw K cry.. That's when i started crying.. Sweet aren't we.. Hahaha... At first i didn't like the song then somehow i'm hook to the song now.. Hehe... :)

Then watch Shrek at The Cathay on 22 May 2010.. Ok la.. The movie was kinda sad at the end but came out funny.. haha..

Last movie we watch was Toy Story 3-D at The Cathay on 17 June 2010.. Again she cried during the show.. Can't blame her.. It's was touching and sad at the same time during the show.. Hehe.. Worth watching it.. :)

WEnt out with K few days ago and we make ourself this ring.. Soo nice.. We had the same mindset though .. Want the ring that can turn.. Haha.. until the guy who serve us gave us a discount fot it cause we can't decide which one.. Haha...

First anniversary gave K a flower.. & it's her first flower.. Cause she's never receive a flower.. hehe.. I'm touch actually.. Hehe...

Second anniversary gave K a flower also but at queenstown mrt station.. She's kinda shy when gave her flower.. HEhe.. i love to see the looks on her face when she receive it.. HEhe...

Third anniversary.. Hmm.. What would it be... Soon u guys will find out.. :)

I'm soo in love with K.. Haha...

i guess that's all about now.. soo long.. like writing essay.. HAha...

Signing Out
-Cuddly Buddy-

2010-01-05T20:13:00.000-08:00

Hi to all bloggers..

Finally its 2010 in just a short time.. 2009 was such a short year.. You guys agree? Hmm.. Celebrated my New Year Eve with my colleagues.. Went to Siloso Beach Party which is at sentosa if some of you don't know.. Hehe.. Had a blast of time with them.. It was like a family outing.. The bonding was there.. Laughter & stuff..

Dande till can't stand.. from night to the next morning.. Meet all kind of people like small.. Tall.. Big.. Thin.. Square.. Round.. Okie crap already.. Hehe.. Furthermore it was my bestie birthday.. HAPPY BLATED BIRTHDAY WISH AT BLOG... Hehe.. Fireworks.. Dancing in the crowd was what i wanted for my new year eve.. Haha.. How i wish everyday was new year eve.. Hehe..

Then while walking say this cute little girl which i damn recognise.. When she came closer.. It was my little primary school friend.. Its been a long long long time since we last saw.. Haha.. She it still short.. Ooppss.. Different somehow.. Haha.. Then had a few glass of VODKA SPRITE.. The taste.. I dont even want to recall the taste.. Bleagh... Hehe..

LOVE LIFE

Somehow im in love with this person.. But its like complicated for the time being.. Waaahh... How i wish human can live life without complication.. Shes fun.. can talk crap with her.. I even call her MINAH.. Hehe.. Still i need time to know her well.. :)

04/01/10

Went to school to orientate new student.. & im taking BEAUTY THERAPY class.. Woohoo.. They are not what i expect them to be.. They are much more fun & funny then the office course.. Hehe.. first day with them is like a year.. Haha.. Laugh here & there.. Played games as usual..

To be surrounded by girls was not a new thing for me.. Soo it was kind of ok for me.. Lucky used to it already.. If not i guess i will be sweating like pig.. Haha.. First of all do pig sweat?? i wonder.. Hmm..

Thats about all for today ya.. Will blog again as soon as i can.. okie.. :)

2009-12-21T09:06:00.000-08:00

Hey Cuddly

Guys.. Im sorry if it took me a long time to update my blog.. Been kinda busy with work & stuff.. Here i am back on the blogging company.. Haha.. Lame.. I know..

LIFE..

Still single.. But getting to know people here and there.. There's the short.. Tall.. Sweet.. Cute.. Plum.. Bubbly.. But im not dating them.. just want to make my friendship circle bigger.. :)

Life getting better and better plus interesting each day.. Loving it everyday & time well spent.. Alone lorr.. :)

LOVE LIFE

Hmm... Im really really damn confused.. Just imagine there's A, B, C, & lastly D.. Thats all.. Nothing much.. :)

WORKING LIFE

Seriously i love my job.. Every single day.. This is the right job for me.. Talking to guest & making their day really makes my day.. Thats all

I guess thats all for now.. Really shag.. Want to take a very deep sleep.. :)

2009-12-03T11:29:00.000-08:00

Dear Cuddly

Hey guys.. Sorry for not blogging for a very very long time.. Hehe.. been busy with school stuff plus alot more in life.. But guess what....

SCHOOLS OVER... WEEE....!!! NO MORE STUDYING...!!! YESSA...

Wow.. I can't believe that its already going to be the end for year 2009... That was kinda fast for me.. Shit plus stuff happen this year.. But i ain't gonna dwell on it.. Hehe..

First & formost thing is that im still SINGLE...!!! Wee.. I'm not sure to celebrate or not but ya.. That's the way it is until i find my Miss understanding plus Patience.. Hehe.. Hmm..

For now I can't wait to start on my new found job as an attraction host at Sentosa.. Cool of what.. Hehe.. Get to interact with customer & use my learning skill at school to be in this job.. Hehe.. My OJT will be this sunday & monday.. Soo wish me good luck ya.. :)

I'm awake right now cause i have been sleeping the whole damn day.. Soo now i'm chatting with my bffs accompanying her while she watch naruto.. Hehe..

Well I got soccer later at 7.00pm.. Gotta rest cause have to save my energy to score tomorrow.. :)

2009-11-08T04:57:00.000-08:00

Dear ME..

Weeee... Sorry guys for not updating.. Been busy with school projects.. & coping with such a complicated life thanks to that person you know who.. Muahaha...

LIFE

My life i can sad it had from bad to worse then from worse to bad & happy.. Then worse.. but for now i can say i am HAPPY with the people who really really care for me.. Who really slap me emotionally to wake my idea up.. Thanks guys & girls.. :)

Still single & counting.. I don't know but i feel that i want to be single for awhile before going into the relationship life.. Cause what i had in my past relationship was.. I can say there are happy moments.. But i have to endure like I'm the one making the mistake.. Haiyo..

All i want now in life is to be happy with Bestie.. Seri.. Ila.. Faz.. Anif.. Aizah.. Hanis Ellen.. Ily.. Raimi.. Elah.. Marissa.. Fad.. Imah.. Zety.. All the friends i have in the world.. Weee.. I LOVE MY FRIENDS.. :)

School Life

Hmm.. Now that my projects are out of the way.. I'm concentrating on theory cause i really want to go Higher Nitec soo that i can get my dream job.. :)

No pain go gain.. Hehe.. seriously i have never been enthusiastic with my studies before.. It's like i love this course.. :)

Bestie Corner

Hey there.. Thanks for all the time we went out together.. Cause you really take time for me to forget bout her.. Hmm.. All i can do now is appreciate you.. :)

Patience is everything.. Maybe 1 day you have that person.. Don't worry & have faith.. aytez... I really really owe you alot.. But still BOwling addict.. :p

Thats all guys.. SMILE ALL MY FRIENDS...!!!

2009-10-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

Dear Cuddly,

Hey there guys.. Sorry for not blogging for a long long time cause i was busy outing with my friends & some people.. :)

My school holiday was a blast.. Everyday went out with Seri, Ila, Anip & Faz.. Such a cool friends i have.. Hope to cherish them.. :)

12/10/09

My first day of school rocks.. The smell of school & the people there just makes me feel that i want to study more.. Hehe.. Then saw the person i wanted to see for the past few weeks.. Soo cute.. Melts my heart.. Wave here.. Wave there.. :)

Then went to to eat at Mcdonald TM with my classmates & there came my friend that i cherish the most.. You know who you are.. Hehe.. Accompany me go buy my perfume the off to Ehub went bowling with her.. Hehe.. Played 2 game first.. Amazingyl she is a good player at bowling.. I was quite scared of losing.. Hehe.. She won the first game & i won the second.. Remember you.. First game was only a warm up.. :)

Then rest for awhile & played another game cause there is still time.. & guess what.. I won again.. Hehe.. All i can say is that you are good at bowling.. Makes me nervous for the first time.. After that went home & reach home around 8.00pm then off to lalaland.. :)

13/10/09

Went to school as per normal.. While waiting for me to finish eating.. Saw her & her friends.. I ate quickly then off to the queue line & she was infront of me.. My friends keep on teasing me infornt of her.. Like what the hell... Still love you friends.. Hehe.. came to school for only an hour then off to cafe1.. Ate nasi ayam thousan island.. Soo the damn nice.. Then it struck me.. About the nasi kankang.. Of all question.. That.. When i was still eating.. But what the hell just eat.. Then saw her again.. cool.. Twice in 1 day.. How lucky can i be.. Hehe..

The only thing i can say is that you make me go gaga when i saw you.. But makes me melt when you notice me.. Hehe.. After school went home straight then take a nap.. Receive message from Ms Angel.. But i can't reply.. You know why.. Sorry love.. :)

Thats all bout today.. :)

LOVE LIFE

Wow.. I just break my record of being single for more then a month.. Its great being single but rather be loved by someone that appreciate each other.. Its easy for me to like someone but not that easy for me to love that person.. Cause the hole is too deep to climb up..

It took me awhile to realise things.. Realise what had happen & why.. All i can say is that you don't deserve the respect you need or want.. EARN IT.. Haha..

FRIENDSHIP LIFE

I have alot of friends to say thanks & appreciate too.. Like Ily.. Raimi.. Elah.. Marissa.. Imah.. Zety.. Seri.. Ilah.. Anip.. Faz.. Aizah.. YaniiBachen.. Shira.. Eqah.. Etc.. But the most i really really appreciate is Ms Angel.. Hehe.. You have been there for me through rise & fall.. Our friendship will remain.. :)

To all.. Thank you for being my friend.. :)

2009-09-26T08:21:00.000-07:00

Dear Cuddly

Wow.. Its been a long time since i use the my cuddly name.. What does it mean.. It means that I'm half way to recovery.. Just need to adjust a little here & there..

As for today.. Woke up really early cause had an interview as a part-time Sats officer.. Customer Service Agent(CSA) :)

Woke up at 7am in the morning.. I know its early.. Maybe too eager to for the interview or too eager to go with HAYDIL.. Hmm.. Either way is possible.. Hehe.. Bath the change to my smartest outfit there is & at the same time have to wake up little miss HAYDIL cause she is hard at waking up.. Aiyo yo.. Had a problem finding my ez-link & time was running late for me.. Manage to find it after 15min of searching..

Met up with HAYDIL at her block to pick her up.. Gentleman mah.. Hehe.. Heard her footsteps & smile was running all over my face.. When i saw her.. Inside my mind was WOW...!!! Jackpot.. Hehe.. I don't know.. Maybe was happy that we were going together since its has been a long time we went out just the both of us.. Miss those days.. Really..

Reach the interview place i can already feel the tension.. The nervousness building up inside me.. But i kept my cool.. Hehe.. Cause it was my first jod interview.. Never have i go for job interview in my life when i went to look for a job.. After the interview i felt really happy actually & wanted to go for more interview cause i just love to interact with people.. :)

After the interview went to Food Culture had luch together with HAYDIL.. Ate Chicken Chop Fried Rice while she ate the usual Fried Handmade Noodles.. She didnt finish the food lorr.. But packet it as not to waste the food.. While we were walking.. We can feel like all eyes are on us.. Aiyo yo.. They never see people wear office attire before izzit.. Aiyo yo.. Walk like we were once again together if you know what i mean.. Hehe.. Then inside the bus was all fine when there is a call from your handphone.. Nevermind.. Don't want to say about it.. :)

A very short bt memorable day for me as i treasure every moment spent together.. :)

LOVE LIFE

Hmm.. My love life is very very complicated.. & i mean complicated like hell.. To start of with.. I really really mean when i say i still love you & its hard for me to move on cause i really really treasure the 2 years plus relation.. I really don't know whether im doing is the right thing or the wrong thing.. I know its the wrong thing by meeting you & stuff.. But i need you by my side.. I do feel the jealousy.. I do feel the sadness when your BF called you or message you..

When will this heart feel with joy & happiness again.. When will it be retain as it was before.. Sometime i think are u really happy with him.. Cause it seems that you are.. don't even bother looking for me cause im the one looking for you.. Sometimes i think.. What do you really want in your life.. Me..?? Him..?? or waiting for something to happen then only you realise..

I am happy now that we are still contacting & we are still meeting each other.. But what i really hope is that meeting you won't have to be secracy.. So you don't have to be afraid of anything or something.. I really appreaciate the time we spent each time we meet each other.. I seems happy.. You seems happy but at the same time busy with your Bf..

What am i blabbering about.. I should be happy for you.. I should be happy for my self.. The word SHOULD.... Understand that..

[110607] Take me back to the first time we seal our lips.....

P.S: My life is complicated then you all think.. Please..

2009-09-22T08:58:00.000-07:00

Dear Me..

Wow.. At last i went out today.. Phew & i thought that i was a dead at home the whole week.. :)

Today went to my NS Division to claim something with my NS buddy.. HAha.. While waiting saw this girl crying.. I was shock & don't know what to do lorr.. So i just sit there like dumb.. But offer her tissue.. Since she was crying badly.. Don't want to know what happen.. Nanti busybody kate kan.. Haha..

Then ate at Ananas izzit.. Ya.. The $1.80 chicken rice.. It was quite nice actually but what had my stomach full was my favourite pepsi drink.. Hehe.. After eating went off to SSDC book my theory test.. The funny thing is i book it today at 5.55pm at 5.40pm.. Haha.. Just want to try my luck whether i can pass.. But sadly luck wasn't on my side.. Scored 43/50.. What the hell right.... Hmm...Thought of taking another test but lazy lorr.. :)

Went home after that then back tothe boring life of lappy & T.v.. Quite a short day today.. :)

LOVE LIFE..

Chatted with you yesterday.. Somehow i feel awkward.. Don't know why.. Maybe that you are attach or maybe theres something else.. It was fun chatting with you.. Knowing that you still miss me & love me.. Then went i wanted to end the conversation.. You cried when i say..

Me: Anything just beep me aytez.. You know that i'll be there for you..

Somehow you cried when i say that.. I was shock cause my intention was to make you happy but end up u breakdown.. Hmm.. You told me that i was still in your heart.. But when i ask about your BF you say that he also in your heart.. But i'm more to the special place.. Im really confuse.. If you really love me then why move on with another guy..

You really need some help.. Even though i still care & concern for you.. But you have someone to care for you.. To concern for you.. Your priority now is your BF not me.. If you really still care & concern about me.. Then you know what you should do.. Cause i don't like this type of love game.. Stay if you sincerely love me.. Leave if you think that you have doubt about my love towards you..

Cause all i know is that I'm sincere enough to love you.. I'm still single cause its not easy for me to move on with someone cause half of me is you.. If you really think that im going to be with someone soon.. Nah.. Cause i believe that deep inside you.. You know what you feel.. Whether you did the right thing or the wrong thing..

All i can say is that make the wise & right choice.. You still have me by your side.. As a friend.. A person who really knows you.. Who really care.. I'm just lost for words for now.. Just that im touch to see that im still part of you.. But don't make a fool of anyone please.. Be it me or your Bf or whoever..

P.S: Love only 1 not 2.. Then you can feel better.. :)

2009-09-21T07:44:00.000-07:00

Dear Cuddly..

Guess what.. Hmm.. nothing much to say today.. Just that i stayed home the whole damn day.. Messaging Ms Angel.. & wathing t.v like there is no tomorrow..

BOred.. Bored.. Very very Bored... Waahh.. Somebody help me in this life of boredom.......

Hmm.. Thats all.. Thanks for hearing me out whoever you are.. Haha..

P.S: Can't wait for wednesday.... Wee... :)

2009-09-20T08:25:00.000-07:00

Dear Me..

Hey guys.. First of all.. SELAMAT HARI RAYE TO ALL MY TAGGED.. FACEBOOK & ALL THE FRIENDS THAT KNOW ME..!! :)

Hmm.. What a tiring yet not soo kinda fun day I had today.. Start off with waking up.. I woke up at 11.00am i guess.. & the not so good thing is that i overslept & didn't go for sembahyang raye for the FIRST TIME.. Oo my god.. I just break my record of not going & i feel bad about it.. :(

Ouh what the hell.. Its over anyway.. :)...... Bath then ate ketupat & lontong if im not mistaken.. What the hell.. I just eat what that can be eaten.. :)... Then came my second sister with my FAVOURITE NIECE.. SHIQAH...!! She is soo adorable that I feel that im her father.. Haha.. Kidding.. But most of my cousin says that she look like me.. Hmm.... Chit chat here & there..

Then the seek forgiveness part.. I wonder why does my first sister always cry every year when seek forgiveness.. Maybe to much sins between my dad & her.. Haha.. As for me.. Always cool.. But still to much have happen this year.. & im kinda expecting a certain someone to approach me.. I hope you know who you are.. :)

Off to my auntie place.. Nearby just a 5 minute walk.. Waited for the rest to come.. & came some of my cousin.. Miss them soo much.. Chit chat here & there.. Ate soto ayam if im not mistaken.. Ahh.. Just eat only lorr.. :) But the cheesecake was DAMN NICE..!! haha.. but didn't stay long there cause need to go to my mother place at AMK.. :)

Take a ride with my brother to my mother place.. Got personal rider ok.. Haha.. reach there gave my mom a hug for almost 15 years i didn't hug her i guess.. Soo kinda feel like hugging her.. :).... Not long then off to my grandad house at Marsiling..

Reach there also chit chat.. But as for me.. I sit at a comfortable position then off to lalaland.. It was a nice quick nap.. Was damn sleepy lorr.. Don't know why but suddenly felt sleepy.. :) Nothing much to say here.. :)

Then went to my uncle house nearby.. All my KECHORABLE uncle & auntie was there.. It was a fun get together thingy for me cause seldom I saw or meet them.. Eat again.. Soo much eating lorr.. Go here eat.. Go there Eat.. Go everywhere EAT..!! aiyo yo.. But still not fat.. Haha.. :)

Then to my another uncle house at CCK.. Meet up with my favourite cousin SARIANA.. She seems to gain weight.. Hmm.. Is there a fish in the bowl.. Haha.. But whatever.. Talk to her & some of my auntie.. Laugh here & there.. Watch soccer ManU vs ManCity.. Lucky ManU won.. But whatever.. I don't support both.. Haha.. Its been a long time since i had this much bonding with them.. I hope to do this often to forget what had happen this year.. :)

LOVE LIFE..

Hmm.. Nothing much to say.. Just congratez to you.. Hope you are happy.. Im Not.. Haha.. Well.. Give & take is my quote.. What people give you take.. Haha.. What the shit im talking about.. Hmm..

To Ms Angel.. I Miss you.. It might sound like a sweet words or empty words.. But only me & him only knows how i feel.. :) Take Care.. Tie my hand ok.. Don't forget.. Haha..

P.S: LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST.. BUT LIVE IT WITH THE PERSON YOU LOVE.. CAUSE LIFE IS TO SHORT FOR REGRETS....!!!! :)

2009-09-13T07:23:00.000-07:00

Dear Me..

Its Weekends.. & I always stayed home during the weekends & always feel bored in the weekends.. Why..?? Cause i don't have u by my side..

Didn't do much today just that watch anime the whole damn weekends & day in my room on my bed.. Whats the point of going out if im not going out with my love ones.. Where else my love one is having fun out there..

I rather talk about my love life then my life at home.. Nothing to talk about actually..

Hmm.. Where should i begin.. I guess you really don't know how i feel about you.. How i have change for you.. How deeply am i in love towards you.. All this time our love is just a fake?? Those years spent were just a play make up by our feelings..?? I really don't know what to feel or what to say now just have to go through depression mode for awhile..

I really really do care for you.. Do concern for you.. But whats the point when you yourself don't even bother about me.. Don't even care about me.. As if i don't exist.. If only i can show you how my heart shape right now.. The pain i go through every night.. The tears that keep on flowing every night.. The feeling of being not love..

Who do i cry out.. Who do i seek to share my pain.. My agony.. My miserable life with.. If its not for you.. But what are you doing now.. Falling for your ex... Isn't falling for your ex will make you love him in the end..?? I really don't understand you.. What do u seek..?? What do u want to gain..?? What do you accomplish by doing this to me & yourself..?? Do you feel happy treating me this way..?? Do you feel happy by doing all those things towards me..?? Do you..??

You met your ex.. When i was still in love with you.. When you still treat me like we are together.. Why.. Why couldnt you just tell me that you have found someone to make you happy.. To make you smile.. To make you laugh.. Where do i go from here.. I am really lost without you.. All i can do now is cry out my pain.. My suffering in this blog.. In this webpage..

All this time.. I keep questioning myself.. Do you really love me in the first place..?? Do you really cherish me in the first place..?? Shouldn't love be forgiving & accepting one another even though we have done shit or treat each other like hell.. Shouldn't love be beautiful rather then sadness.. Pain & suffering.. Im lonely.. Very lonely without you..

I guess thats all i can say for now cause the story is very long..

P.S: I Believe If You Are Patience Enough & Have Faith In The Person You Love Or Yourself.. Your Love One Will Come Back.. I Believe That You Will Come Back To Me.. BAby_Haydil

2009-09-07T08:54:00.000-07:00

Dear Me

Guys guys.. Im really sorry for not updating my blog up to date but this past few weeks was busy with school stuff & life..

As usual for the malays or muslim.. Have to wake up early for break-fast then some might continue sleeping & some might pray & some might do what is on their mind.. :)

Went to school as per normal.. Alone cause some of my friends left me behind cause i was late by a few minutes.. But what the hell.. Hehe..

Reach to school first thing that came to my mind was is she in school.. Just cant face her dont know why.. dont care..

Actually nothing much to write today.. so i just brag about my love life.. Hmm..

I really cant accept what you did to me.. Toyed with my feelings.. Played with my life etc.. But still i really appreciate you all this time for taking care of me during the 2 years relationship.. Now i guess you are happily living your life in your own rule in your own world..

For me to move on it would take not just me to do it alone.. I need confidence.. Help.. Perseverance.. Pressure.. Etc.. But i dont think i can move on that easily cause i do still care for you.. But im not sure if you do care for me.. Hmm.. Why care for the girl who are not interested in me anymore.. Want to know the answer.. Pure love towards her.. But what the hell... Hehe..

Hmm.. Ouh well.. thats about all.. Toodles.. :)

P.S: My Smiles are slowly coming back.. :)

2009-08-30T10:05:00.000-07:00

Dear Me..

First of all sorry guys for not updating my blogs for the past emm few weeks or months.. Been busy with study & how to cope in life..

Life has been miserable for me.. How am i suppose to live or concentrate on things when you are not here with me.. Why can't you get it that the only person i love is you & no other person then you will i love.. Why can't u seems to see that my love & my passion towards you are honest & sincere..

Why do you always jump to conclusion.. Why don't you sit & talk like an adult when solving problems.. Why do you have to follow your feelings when you know that its not true.. Why.. Why..

There are alot of question on my mind running everyday.. It keep on thinking & thinking until it will stop thinking that is when i know im no longer needed.. You make a fuss just because i chatted with my ex.. You make me feels useless just because i chatted with my ex..

How blinded you are by hatred or by what you feels until you forgot to see that my heart.. My feelings towards you are true & not just words.. Sometime i think to myself.. Are your love towards me that low until you can let me go just like that.. When you say your love towards me are.. Forget it..

Where were you when i need you.. How am i suppose to let out this feelings when i know that you are the only one i can let it out.. I can show what i feels inside.. what i really really am inside.. To you i am nothing just a stepping stone.. But to me you are my future.......

P.S: Someone please snap the hell out of me.............

2009-08-18T06:55:00.000-07:00

Dear Freakyemo,

It was fun & interesting day for me today.. Will talk about it later or sooner.. :)

Started school at 8.30am today.. Damn early lorr but what to do.. School is school & have to study hard for the upcoming test & exams.. Want to go higher nitec in either Sports Management or Logistic.. :)

First lesson was BEG.. Was suppose to dress up in office attire during the lesson but I totally forgot about it.. So i was the odd ones out.. I feel kind of into it if you know what i mean by looking at my fellow classmates wearing the smart wear.. Soo the SMART.. :)

Then after BEG was BEO.. Had progress test on Unit 3 which i found it quite easy.. After the test had some revision on Unit 4 cause tomorrow is going to be Unit 4 progress test.. I love it when it comes to progress test cause it test me on how i understand the subject.. :)

After school went to cafe 1 for lunch.. Had Chicken Rice & a cup of pepsi.. Had fun with my friends talking.. Laughing.. Saying out lame jokes.. Haha..

Then off to TM1 to celebrate Fad birthday.. WEe.. Caught her on the surprise along with Me.. Ily & Raimi cause we didnt thought that they would celebrate the August babies.. Thanks guys.. Really love & appreciate it.. :)

Event though i was smiling or laughing with my friends or whoever im with.. Im still feeling lonely inside.. Thinking of her.. Where is she now?? Does she have someone new?? Why the sudden?? Dont you cae for me anymore?? that type of question is always running through my head like the tornado that woudnt stop.. all i can do now is just look into the future & move on with a single step by a day..

I really am thinking of you.. But im not sure if you are.. You seems ok to me.. ouh well.. Dont want to brag about what is not important to me now.. Hehe.. Im Aidil aka Cuddly Buddy.. Sad is not my middle name.. Smiley is my middle name..

P.S: I dont walk backwards.. I walk forwards.. Same goes in my mind.. :)

2009-08-17T00:54:00.000-07:00

Dear Aidil

Yesterday was a fun day for me until a sudden message came to my phone.. Touch on that later..

Yesterday woke up damn early around 7.15am in the morning just to do house chores plus laundry.. I know its kinda hard to believe that i did all this things but that is just me.. Brought up in a family that is independent & stuff..

Then off to my friend wedding at braddell area.. Met up with izzul & arie at admiralty mrt then went there together.. Guess what.. Arie broke his last finger.. Soo sad.. Really.. You have my sympathy bro.. :) Reach braddell around 1.30 then have to wait for Mr Hafiz & his GF.. Cool.. Hafiz ade matair.. Congratez..

When we reach the wedding thingy.. Saw alot of familiar faces from Unity Sec.. But cant recall some of their name.. Well.. It shows that im already old.. Haha.. Ate with them.. Catch up on things.. Bla.. Bla.. Bla..

Then off to Orchard to chill with Arie & Izzul.. Just spending some time together since its been a long time we have seen each other or something like that.. Went to Borders then to Faiz & lastly to Orchard Central..

Reach home around 6.30 then watch anime as usual.. Then came the message that i was talking about earlier.. She message me that she want a clean breakup.. What the hell.. There i was editing our facebook account & it was like someone throw me a Nuke..

Does messaging count as a clean breakup.. Well.. Maybe some people arent mature or brave enough to say it face to face.. If you are an adult & atleast mature abit.. Have the courtesy of breaking up like an adult & not like a secondary type that uses messages or calls.. Please.. Wheres your sense of adulthood..??

Im kinda sad & dissapointed why she did this.. All she say was after we patch her feelings towards me was fading away or something like that.. In the first place if its fading away then why the acceptance..?? It is really not logical enough if you tell to a person that is mature to you lorr..

All i can say now is that your reason are soo not into place & you really are not good at it.. If you know what i mean.. But whatever it is just live your life as what you want to be..

P.S: Some people are just damn childish & cowards.. I Hate Cowards.. Who dont stand up in breaking up.. Bullshit lorr.. Haha.. Ouh Well.. :)

2009-08-04T06:38:00.000-07:00

Dear FreakyEmo,

Today was the most painful day for me cause it hurts me so bad that I have lost my feelings.. I'm not sure whether i am to smile or sad.. Happy or down.. Its like a jumble up feelings inside me..

Went to school as per normal.. Woke up little Miss Ily.. Aiyo yo.. Then meet up with the rest at smallMc tamp inter..

First lesson was BEG & it was a topic on Colour Of The World or something like that.. First of all im colour-blind.. Secondly how am i to know what colour when im colour-blind.. Haiz.. Im really at a disadvantage..

Then second lesson was BEO.. I was like half sad already.. Where is Miss Angel..?? WAAHH...!!! Teacher was okay but couldnt concentrate cause my mind was thinking & it can't stop thinking day by day.. Its about something.. Tell you later.. :)

After school went to Tampines Mall accompanied Ily to buy her stuff.. On the way saw her.. I was happy yet sad cause im like a stranger to her.. But guess Seri & Aizah didnt treat me like 1... As for ila i understand she was accompanying her..

Thats all for today.. Now for my love life.. :(

Sadly I really don't know whether you treat me like a stranger or just a human that doesnt exist in this world.. Im like the wind that doesnt blow.. The water that doesnt feel..

You talk about the last hug etc.. In your blog but it seems that its just words.. Before we were friends what were we..?? Before we were lovers what were we..?? Think about it..

Honestly i feel bad about our break up but i can't stand when your dad.. You know.. I don't want to mention it.. Forgive you I will.. But him i have to depends on how the situation is.. I maybe dumb in what i do.. But atleast i am wise enough & mature enough to think when is the limit..

I know that you will treat me as cold & wicked as you can be but think how i am struggling to treat you as nice as what i always do.. I know some of us might think that why am i still writing bout her.. Its because i CARE..

You might be moing on slowly.. Im happy for you but letting you know this.. It is not something that i might say to all my ex.. Your heart are still with me..

Your soul.. Your mind.. Your smile.. Your laughter & you are still with me.. I don't know how i am coping to get use not living with you but i will try.. & try & try.. Until i can't take it animore thats when you know how much i try but still at the same track..

Letting out my feelings in this stupid blog for people to read is what i have.. Cause i know i can't let it out on you or you'll get mad at me.. Haha.. Well.. What a cruel & patience world im in..

By the way there is a saying in malay.. Kalau dah ludah tak jilat balek right.. But what if that ludah is the only thing that saves you in your life.. Would you lick it back..?? hmm.. i wonder.. cause people tend to do miracle..

P.S: I might not be your bf animore but i am still part of your mind that keeps thinking & remembering..

2009-08-02T04:30:00.000-07:00

Dear Aidil,

Today was the painful & yet hardest day & part of my life.. I let my the person closest to me her freedom.. Haish.. Its hard for me to do it but i have to because of the words that nail it & can't be forgiven.. This is why i say watch what you or we say..

I have to move on but the memories will still stain my mind be it good or bad i still find it cherishable.. I only hope that you are fine with your life & we can talk as usual & you bare no grudges against me.. Like what i told you.. Before we were friends.. We were stranger.. Before we were lovers.. We were Friends..

Im really really sorry that i have to let you go.. Im deeply soo.. But i know that you can't accept my apology.. I hope that bygone be bygone.. I know its hard but atleast i know that you are no stranger to me..

I can see that you are holding on to your tears just now when we last met.. I just wish that you can let it out on me.. Your last anger.. Your last jealousy etc.. Don't blame youtself that our realtionship fail.. Its all my fault & only me.. Not you ok..

Yesterday was the best time well spent with you even though some of the way you were mad of some picture of my friends or god-sister are in my ipod.. I tried my best to make it worthwhile but you won't let me.. I hope this separation open your eyes.. If is doesnt then i hope someone will..

Thats all for today.. Want to coninue being myself..

P.S: Song for you are not meant to sing.. Tc is all i can say..

2009-07-26T06:44:00.000-07:00

Dear Cuddly

First of all this is my last entry for the week & i will be blogging again when i came back from my 1 week in-camp training reservist.. What a hassle.. But what to do.. I am to serve & protect my country.. :)

Nothing much to to on my weekends just slack at home both yesterday & today.. No plan & feeling damn bored to hell.. Watch south park & anime the whole day.. Wasting time in my room on my bedroom on the laptop.. Aiyo yo.. Ouh well maybe my life was meant to be miserable.. Huhu..

Emm.. What to write bout today.. Hmm.. Wake up watch south park & anime again for the past days then pack for my reservist tomorrow.. I misplace my swimming trunk.. How..?? Nevermind.. Maybe i'll be excuse.. Huahuahua.. Then out of nowhere Ily call me.. The usual.. Just both of us only knows.. :)

Accompany here to go buy some stuff.. First time sey Ily.. Hehe.. Im Impress.. Then went to FnS to ate some dessert with her.. I guess she's the last person i saw before i depart for my reservist for 1 week.. :)

After that back to the lappy again.. No life.. Aiyo yo.. Just waiting for the Liverpool game.. Then its time.. Watch the game & guess what.. Liverpool WON..!! woohoo.. As expected but sadly Gerrard wasnt there to play.. But atleast better then nothing.. :)

I guess thats about all for today.. You guys have to wait for me to come back which is on 1 August.. Then guess.. Its my BIRTHDAY..!!

P.S: I let you live your live but don't call me when you are in trouble cause i have done my part by advising you.. :)

2009-07-24T11:36:00.000-07:00

My Luckt Kiss.. :)

Mr Bouncer.. Kwang3.. :)

Did i over do it??

Nice pose for me.. Kwang3.. :)

2009-07-24T11:17:00.000-07:00

Dear Cuddly

First of all i woke up late today.. Aiyo yo.. Not good.. Then rush bathing but didnt rush dressing up.. Hehe.. Have to be smart & neat when going to school.. :)

Reach school left only half an hour before the lesson ends.. Aiyo.. What to do. Late mah.. :)

After school went to cafe 1 to eat with my friends & o thought that Gf was going to tag along but instead she went with her friends.. Im fine with that.. :)

Then went to play soccer at Safra Tamp with my new soccer group.. :) thats about all i guess today.. Nothing much to write lorr..

When will you understand? all i ask for is just an understanding & not more then that & see what you gave me.. I am being patience more then what u expect.. All i ask for is a towel for goodness sake and you the cheek to say go & get it for yourself at your house.. Cool.. This is the type of Gf that makes me wonder is she serious in the relationship??

Your patience last only for awhile while you look at me.. Look at me really deep & see.. Who do i turn to when im down?? you?? me?? my friends?? Family?? If you are giving up please don't let me hanging on the tips.. If u want to continue please atleast talk with manners.. Courtesy & respect.. If its hard to do soo then maybe you are not mature like what you say you are..

2009-07-23T08:19:00.000-07:00

Dear Cuddly

Another day has pass and another pain of agony awaits.. It shows that you only last for the moment & not for the lifetime.. I can't say much now.. I let it be.. Let it be...

Today wokr up late then the usual.. then called Ms Ily to wake her up but still in lalaland as usual.. I wonder whats in there?? Maybe one day i hop into her dreams & see it for myself..:)

As usual.. Went to school alone nobody to accompany me & stuff.. Reach tamp inter & saw Zety & Elah queueing for the bus already.. Cool.. Lucky they are there.. Then came along Marissa with Azura, Mirah & last but not least Rohani.. :)

First lesson was the most important lesson for me & it is BPF.. A little bit of math here & there.. That is qhy it is important for me cause i sux at math big time.. Why..?? because i dont understand the question wants.. Aiyo yo..

Second lesson was BEO.. Nothing much lorr.. But i got my mark for the previous test & is was not up to my standard.. I really need to study for this term cause if not then there will be no H.Nitec for me.. :(

Third lesson was POA.. Only an hour of it still nothing much to say just that got irritated or annoyed by Ily & Liza cause they just got to know that i have a ticklish body & they cant stop tickling me.. Aiyo yo.. Cant concentrate on what the lecturer is talking about.. Please stop tickling me guys.. :)

Then came the main event of today.. The High Element thingy.. Sort of self confidence or team building fot my class & myself.. It was fun while doing it cause the height was like 3 storey high.. It was soo scary doing it.. Had to help someone through the course. Hehe.. One thing i learn about this course it that.. Just CHONG..!! Haha..

Then after school meet up with my second sister at causeway point.. Just taking a stroll then ate at Banquet with her just to catch up on things & stuff.. After causeway went to my dad house cause she wants to use to lappy.. I was sleeping then.. My body & mind are really tired of the stuff that i had to take everyday.. I hope someday that you realise it..

P.S: You only last for a moment when it was meant for a lifetime.. Back to your oldself.. More enduring for me then you expected..

2009-07-21T04:42:00.000-07:00

Dear Cuddly

Everything has been going smoothly between me & her.. Hopefully that isstay this way & won't be any quarrel.. Atleast for now.. Haha.. Emm.. Im doing fine and great now.. Been being & feeling myself lately.. The Smiles.. The Laughter & etc..

She has change alot.. Amazingly alot.. It Wow me & me of cause.. Hehe.. Well.. Just love her now then ever.. Kwang.. Kwang.. Kwang.. :)

Well.. About today.. Nothing much to say.. Just the same day as ever.. Morning have to wake Ily from her lalaland.. Hehe.. Just what is she dreaming until its hard for her to wake up.. Well.. Only she knows.. :)

Then went to school alone.. Where's Ily.. Aiyo yo.. Sleeping lorr.. Hehe.. Reach tamp inter & i thought that i was the late comer.. So there was later then me.. Aiyo yo.. PUNCTUALITY GUYS..!!! Then came mr Raimi & Nabilah.. Went off to school just the three of us.. :)

The first lesson of the day was BEG.. Dont ask me.. Find out youself.. *Winks* Had a practical lesson today.. Learn about skin care & then come the practical.. Im telling you.. It is hard work.. Have to apply facial wash then scrubs & mask after that.. Too bad no picture.. The mask was so biting lorr.. Then wash it and add on moisturizer.. & my face looks.. The same.. Durh.. HEhe..

After BEG was BEO.. Teacher was on MC.. Hope you get well soon ya Ms Linda.. nothing much.. Just do the boring question that is damn easy.. Ouh well.. Maybe i was born a office expert or something.. :)

After school went home straight.. Gf wanted me to tag along with her go eighteen chef to eat.. But nah.. SAVE MONEY..!! Hehe.. Went home straight & about 10 to 15min im in lalaland ready.. Haha.. Damn sleepy lorr.. Aiyo yo..

Thats about all i guess today.. :) toodles.. Smile always.. Its the way to the heart.. If you know what i mean guys.. :)

P.S: Hope to spend time with you.. Even though i finish early.. Mish u.. :) & my friends... Please.. Please Be PUNTUAl..!! I want you to pass this term ok.. :)

Cuddly Quote Of The Day: : "To Know You.. You Need To Understand You.."

2009-07-19T01:32:00.000-07:00

Dear ME..

How long am i going to hold on..?? am i holding on too long or it is just that i love her soo much that i can't bear to leave her.. I am finding the answer that is impossible to find, but i am going to try and find it no matter what..

I am fighting.. Not physically but mentally.. Its painfull.. Its Hurting.. Its Unbearable.. Its out of control sooner or later. It keep building up than going away. Everyday life is like a everyday struggle to me.. My Family.. My Friends.. My love One.. My Siblings.. Is the burden on my shoulder that heavy??

Nobody knows how i feel inside.. Never will.. Is my heart going to explode by the pain that i have hold on since young.. Since i keep being patient.. What is the cure to my sickness??

I can only turn to myself since i don't want to trouble the people around me.. Will my shoulder be lighter?? Im doing my best to hold on.. But im at the edge of my finger tips..

Well.. I Hope that im not going to be insane.. :)

About today.. Nothing much to do.. Just do house chores then bath.. After bath went to a wedding thingy few blocks away from my house with my dad.. Then thats about all.. :)

P.s: MY Friends.. My GF.. My Family.. My Surrouding.. I need your help.. I cant do it on my own..

2009-07-07T07:49:00.000-07:00

Hey.. Guys.. Today is my story..

2nd day of my school week.. And i have to reach school at 8.. Means i have to wake up early.. Bath early.. Aiyo yo.. Well.. What to do.. Have to prove myself that i am not just plain dumb but smart dumb.. Hehe..

Reach school with the sleepy face then first lesson was BEG.. Something about grooming stuff.. Hehe.. The lesson was very interesting cause it was conducted by a very fun teacher that is Ms Irene Choong.. She is so funny that make the class interesting.. :)

Then the second lesson was BEO.. Event Organisation.. BLa.. Bla Bla.. very early day that ended early.. School end at 12 then went to interchange to accompany friends.. Met GF for awhile.. Even though its awhile its something that make me smile.. :)

Went home after that.. then guess what did i do.. SLEEP..!! Damn tired lorr..

I know its a boring day but what to do..

2009-07-01T09:59:00.000-07:00

Hey.. Hey.. Hey.. Holiday is going to be over soon and i can't wait to see my friends again.. Muahaha..

Well.. Well.. Well.. Today full of walking and searching for me & my GF because we were looking to buy my new shoes..

So we went to town Faiz Plaza to survey the nicest shoe there is for me.. Then after the long walk around the plaza.. Our stomach were making sound.. Guess what.. We were hungry lorr aiyo yo.. Then went to eat at Cahaya Foodcourt.. I wanted to eat at Subway but GF wanted to eat mee.. So have to give in lorr.. If not the horn will come out.. haha... After eating we were to meet up with seri & Ila at City Hall..

At City Hall.. We went to Suntec City still surveying my shoe.. But not there.. Sad.. Sad.. But later GF wanted to go Donut Factory to buy what else.. DONUT.. Durh.. From Suntec City we went to Peninsular Plaza meet up with Ila BF then survey around the Peninsular Plaza i don't know how many times.. Still not there..

Then Seri, Ila & Ila BF were hungry that they wanted to eat KFC.. So i suggested that we go Faiz Plaza & eat since that there is alot to eat there.. Then they agreed.. Reach Faiz already.. The 3 of them went on to eat while me & my Gf went to this shop to look at the shoe that i aim for.. Then bought it lorr Haha.. It is not much or a design.. But just plain black shoe.. But the material is wonderful..

K lorr.. Lazy to write ready.. kwang3.. Toodles..

2009-06-15T10:47:00.000-07:00

Dear friends of this academyoooh romeo is bleeding to death
To see a friend bleed to death,
what forSome kind of metaphor that I cant see?
So I'll drink until I see it.

This sky will make me sick
So I'll give up on youI'll give up on this
This sky will make me sick
So I'll give up on this
I'll give up on you

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine

So you want to hold me up and bring me downYes,
you want to hold me up and break me down
I don't care for your sweet scent
Or the way you want me more than I want you
and I don't care for your sweet scent
Or the way you want me more than I want you

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine..

It's all mine..
It's all mine..
It's all mine..

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine..

Archers in your arches
Raise your fingers for one last salute
And bleed this skyline dry
Your history is mine...

Miracle

2009-06-07T06:19:00.000-07:00

Hey.. Wassup guys.. Sorry for not blogging for the past months.. I have been busy with exams & something else.. Its a surprise.. :)

Well.. For the past months I have been performing at the COREFEST 09 and just recently finish my mid-year paper.. I hope that i will pass my paper with flying colours & make my parents proud.. Hehe..

Then come the BL(Bridge Leaders) new committee meeting.. I have made it in the Logistic Committee.. & glad because i know & love logistic stuff.. :)

Yesterday was a tiring day for me because I & my friends went out the whole night & ton in the town area.. Haha.. Soo i slept the whole day yesterday.. When i woke up to my surprise my GF was there looking at me drool while sleeping.. Ouh well, used to it already.. :)

Today sleep almost half of the day due to the rain.. I love it when it rains.. Hehe.. Makes me want to sleep more & more but can't.. Have to do house chores.. :) Emm.. Not much actually to say today.. Just eat then watch T.v then slack in the room facing the lappy.. Then chat with my LLA(Long Lost Adek) Hehe.. Other then that BORING..!!

WHAT A BORING DAY TODAY..!! I HATE SUNDAY..!!

P.S: A Problem Can Be Solve If It Is Handle By Two Person.. Not One..

wow

2009-05-10T00:20:00.000-07:00

Wow.. It's been a long time since i blog ya.. been busy with school stuff.. Then exam coming.. aiyo yo.. Have to study.. Going to Higher Nitec. :)

Well.. Today nothing much but early morning got something on at my aunt house.. Then eat as much as i can cause i was damn hungry lorr.. Havent eat for ages.. Haha.. Kidding guys.. :)

WAH..!! Havent survey the stuff for SBM Bazaar.. Are we dead or what.. Aiyo yo.. Still have to put hope on our group right.. Hehe.. Well.. Just do your best guys.. :)

Guess what.. I'll be performing again on 15 May 09 at Odiocrib.. Yesssa.. Druming is my passion & hyping up the crowd is my Game.. Haha..

Hmm.. Nothing much to say lorr.. What else there is.. Hmm..

Ouh ya.. GF.. I love it when u talk to me like a real gerl.. You know what i mean.. It just melt my heart.. I can't help it.. I just love a gerl who talk like a real gerl.. So Soft.. So gentle.. Like want to Bite them.. Hehe...

Question That Some Of You All Might Think.. Haha..

Does Aidil Love To Smile? Ans: Yesh
Does Aidil Like To Talk Crap? Ans: Yesh
Is Aidil That Friendly? Ans: Yesh
Is Aidil A Happy Go Lucky Guy? Ans: Nope
When Does He Get Mad? Ans: Not Sure
Is He A Patient Person? Ans: Yesh
What Is He's Fav Colour? Ans: Black
What is Inside His Mind? Ans: Nothing
Does He Love To Think? Ans: Yesh

I Guess thats about all guys.. Anything to ask.. Just email me or just leave a message ok.. Toodles..!!

2009-05-04T07:54:00.000-07:00

Hey Guys... Wassup.. Wassup.. Here again i am to blog about my so call peaceful life.. Haha..

Hmm.. Today is the first day of the week.. So im not happy because its the first day of the week.. DURH..!! Wake up as usual.. Feel like skipping school today.. But put my motivation attitude on & just went to school..

Reach tampines already half-dead because of the 45min journey.. Argh.. Use to it already.. Haha.. Then reach school 10min early for my first lesson.. Teacher was damn late lorr..Tupid.. Keep people waiting.. I HATE PEOPLE KEEPING ME WAITING..!! Got that in your brain guys.. Haha..

After the first two lesson then its break time.. Ate Fried Noodles.. Made by my GF.. Damn damn nice.. Drink pepsi & the lopes thingy.. Haha.. Just figure that out lorr..

After school.. Accompany GF to her work place.. First day don't want to be late for first impression.. Haha.. Then went off to long john with Ila, Iqbal, Seri & Yusri.. Im the odd one out.. Aiyo yo.. Nevermind.. Use to it already.. Haha..

After eating at long john.. Went home straight.. Tired want to sleep then rest for tomorrow got alot of stuff at school.. Like teasing people.. Making people laugh.. Haha.. Ouh ya.. Guess what.. I got my own hair stylist.. Haha.. (GF confirm become Hulk) Wakaka..

Thats about all lorr.. Time to put my sleepy attitude on & go to.. LALALAND..!! Meet you guys there aytes.. Toodles..!!

P.S: GF.. I can see improvement in you.. Please don't let that improvement drop ok.. For faith is what i have in you.. Luv ya.. Muax..

Headache

2009-05-02T07:22:00.000-07:00

I think this is after our first song.. Me(Drummer).. Yan(Vocalist) & Sufi(Guitarist)

We are on FIRE..!!!

This Is the best Bandmate Ever..!! NT..!! NT..!!

Thats about all today.. feeling headache..!!

22 April 09

2009-04-22T05:57:00.001-07:00

Yo yo yo... Its Mr Cuddly in the house.. :)

Well.. Lets get started ya..

Today started school at 10a.m.. So was abit early reach school.. But still, early is better than late right.. Haha.. First class was SBM, only 1hr of it.. But still the boringness is there.. Haha.. Then after class meet GF to collect my daily meal.. That is secret.. Haha.. Only my close one knows what i ate everyday.. Haha...

Then after SBM was OSA.. My most favourite subject.. Why.. Because i LOVE to type & do computer work rather than paperwork.. So the not interested.. Haha.. Got progress test today.. I think i will be getting 99/100 because i only got 1 mistake.. Haha.. Nevermind.. Its only a Mock Test.. Haha..

After OSA was SW1.. Went to the field then sit there like stone.. Off to the toilet to get myself change & ready to play captain ball.. Why does my SW teacher like to play captain ball.. Im not quite sure myself.. Haha.. Then meet up wif GF for awhile because later she is off to work.. So, no spending time with her lorr.. :( But its ok with me.. Haha..

Played the captain ball against EIT student.. Like they are challenging us.. Hello.. We are OA..!! You are obviously messing with the wrong class lorr.. Haha.. Then play.. Play.. Play.. Won the game 10-1.. Haha.. Tolcha you mess with the wrong class.. Haha.. Thanks to MR.MANI.. *winks*

Then after SW.. Went to cafe 2 to cool ourself down with some of my classmates.. Chit caht here & there then took some candid photo of Lisa & Izaty.. Haha.. Should i or should i not post it.. Hmm.. Nah.. Haha..

From cafe 2 off to cafe 1 to chill.. Then spotted my babies.. Ila & Seri.. Chit chat with them while waiting for my BL Cheer training for this Friday.. Thencame hairy & Salina.. :) Laugh here & there.. When there is me.. There is always laughter.. Haha..

Then came the Cheering Training.. Damn late started.. Thats all Lorr..

K guys.. Thats all for today.. Toodles.. Laugh always.. Be crazy or cartoon brainist like me.. Haha.. :)

P.S: GF I MISH U SOO MUCH.. HAIZ.. HOPE U ARE DOING FINE WITH YOUR TRAINING YA.. TOODLES.. MUAX..

2009-04-22T05:57:00.000-07:00

Hey...

I'm totally in a happy happy good mood.. Wanna know why.. Cause it's just me.. Haha..

First of all.. Guess what.. Guess.. Guess.. College East have to entertain my crappyness for another 2 more years.. Haha.. Yes.. You are right.. I got the H.ntc course that i wanted.. All thanks to my hard work & also god for making it happen.. :)

I just can't wait to go back to school life.. I love school life cause thats where friends are.. & also you can disturb passerby or stranger.. Hehe... I'm soo happy that i vcan shout until my roof collapse.. Haha.. Thats just lame lorr.. I know.. Hehe.

For those of my friends who didn't get into the course.. I pray hard that you will get it in the appeal date.. Okie.. :)

I MISS MY FRIENDS & THEY ARE

Ily.. Raimi.. Marissa.. Ima.. Fad.. Elah.. Zety.. Irfan.. Azura.. Amirah.. Gundu.. Bestie.. Lindah.. Mastura.. Simah.. Sunshine.. Rohani.. Azlyn.. Lisa.. Wilson.. Nurul.. Rosz.. Seri.. Ila.. Anip.. Aizah.. Shaz.. Fina.. Syu.. etc..

They make me laugh.. Smile.. Say lame stuff.. They are my precious friends.. :)

Cuddly Quote Of The Day

Friends & love one can come & go.. But the kindness & perseverance that they show towards you will remain in your heart & brain.. :)

21 april 09

2009-04-21T05:57:00.000-07:00

Hey.. Guys.. Sorry for not blogging yesterday.. Damn tired & sleepy.. Went home straight attak the bed.. :)

Well Today.. Hmm.. Well.. Lets See.. Ok..

Well.. Basically i woke up alte today for the first time this year.. Then straight attack the shower room then my bedroom then off th school lorr.. Tried calling my friend ILY but maybe she's dead SLEEPING..!! Haha.. Well just worried bout her that's all.. (GF don't be angry horr she's just a friend). Then reach school also late.. Aiyo yo.. Never its going to happen again.. :) Then come to my first class for only 15min, teacher never scold me.. MUAHAHA..

After that had 2hr break because some of my classmate have CRN Roleplay Test.. But mine is later lorr.. Then go wander around in school like a lost soul with no sense of direction.. Haha.. Sat at the lift lobby 1 helping the OC selling their yummy CUPCORN & HOTDOG.. They sure are tasty.. Hehe..

After my CRN Roleplay then still got some time left to my next lesson that is OSA.. Sat at the same place helping thesame people selling the same stuff.. Ouh ya.. Lucky came across Miss Farhana.. I ask her to help me buy 1 cup of cupcorn.. Yea.. Atleast i help them gain some profit.. Thanks ya Farhanah.. I owe u one.. :)

Then off to OSA lesson.. BORING..!! Because i know already lorr.. Aiyo yo.. Listen to music that i was going to perform this sunday whole doing my OSA assignment.. Haha.. First time be a good boy never disturb people.. Hehe.. Want to finish early then go home early lorr.. Haha..

After OSA waited for GF at forum with Hidayah(OH). Played the SCRAMBLE game at my Ipod.. Thank god i win.. Fuuhh.. Muahaha.. Then GF came with a group of her friends that i love to make them laugh.. Then ate at Food Culture.. Ate the Immitation Cheese Fries.. Haha.. While laughing here & there.. Fries were flying.. Water were laughing too.. So was the chair.. Just imagining it will make yourself laugh.. Aiyo yo.. Why do i have a cartoon brain.. Haha..

Hmm.. 1 think i am an entertainer to all my friends.. Cause i love to make them laugh with my craps & stupid lame.. See.. Lame can be funny.. Haha..

I guess thats about all for today.. I love to write more.. But my eyes is popping out ready.. Haha.. IMAGINATION is WONDERFULL... :)

P.S: GF don't worry so much k.. I may have many friends out there that is a gerl.. But i can only have i place in my heart.. That is you.. Toodles..

Nytes guys.. Like spongebob love to sing.. ITS THE BEST DAY EVER..!! Hehe...

Spongebob

2009-04-19T05:13:00.000-07:00

Hey.. guys.. How do my new blogskin look..??? Izzit nice or cute?? Heeh... Well... Nothing much really bout my blog.. just that im being me.. Mr.Cuddly.. :)

Well.. Nothing much to do today.. So just slack at home do house chores.. Lazing around in bed.. Then all that i can think of doin at home.. :)

Then GF ask my help to change her blogskin.. WAh.. Stress.. But still holding on.. Im a perserverance boy after all.. Haha.. Ya ryte.. Help her with her blog.. Then off to shop buy some food.. Feeling hungry ready.. No wonder my body so skinny.. Haha..

Well.. thats about all.. Later iron cloths then off to bed early cause got nothing much to do just sleep lorr..

Hmm.. Want to share with you guys something.. Im thrill about the upcoming 26th April and 30th May because i will be performing in my Rawking Cool Band Nightmare Trilogy.. Oooya... Can't wait.. Love u guys..

Toodles.. Guys & Gerls.. Ouh Ya.. Love my BL...!!!

19 april 09

2009-04-18T09:09:00.000-07:00

HEy.. Guys.. I know some of you all might miss me or stuff like that.. Haha.. Sorry for not blogging for the past days.. Been Busy with school stuff and all..

Well.. Lets get started for today life of Cuddly.. :)

Today wake up 12.00pm then straight attack the lappy.. Haha.. Long time never use the lappy.. Then watch anime and more anime. Sorry guys but i am an anime freak.. Haha.. Hmm.. Then suddenly my sister came and attack the lappy too.. What to do.. Brother must give way to sister.. Haha.. See.. I am a good person.. Haha.. Ya ryte cuddly.. :)

Then off to bugis to meet my bandmates.. They rock man.. Really.. Meet them at 5.30pm then off to beats.. Somehere near Sultan mosque.. :) Then jam for 1hr 30min.. Still Not enough for me.. Cause i love to drum.. Ouh ya.. For your Info.. Im a DRUMMER in my band.. :) Guitar can't play.. Vocal also cannot.. Heeh..

Love to play our ori song (predators and prey) then.. After jamming session with my bandmates.. Off too my sweet little baby house at east side.. Not to do hanky panky ok.. Just having dinner with her.. Atleast got to spend some quality time will do ryte.. :)

I guess thats all bout today.. Hehe.. Tc.. Love u guys.. Toodles..

its been along time

2009-03-31T08:20:00.000-07:00

Hey.. Its been a long time since i blog.. Sorry.. been busy with school outing & stuff.. :)

Well.. Want to start by telling about last week.. But i'll try to aytes..

Hmm.. Last friday was my BL BBQ.. Had so much fun & games with all my friends.. Went swimming at the beach.. Then started dumping people inside.. Hehe.. Those who are dry are now wet.. Hehe.. Thanks to the wet people.. :)

Then recently sleep over at ECP cause had event on sat at 6am.. What to do.. No transport.. :) I feel sleepy but can't sleep so started talking crap & somehow wake the sleepy FINA.. Well 1 of our friend actually sleep peacefully at the side as is she's been vaccum by the tent.. :)

Then today went to school to help with the logistic side with the prize wrapping & paper cutting etc.. Then had to stop half-way cause no more envelope.. After that went to eat at Century Square with hidayah & Ily.. Then went home after that.. Shag ready.. Tomorrow got BL outing... Aiyo yo.. Been busy.. But fun..

Thats about all.. Toodles..

P.s: People who talk alot of shit about poeple are the people that seek attention. Hehe..

Tired after soccer

2009-03-11T08:17:00.000-07:00

Hey.. im feeling kinda tired.. but i will try to say alot aytez..

Hmm.. Today school was normal but i think that i kind of miss NS life.. NS life is the best of all.. I hope i can serve NS again.. Hehe.. not reservist.. But NS..

After school went of to play soccer at Old Police Academy.. The tournament that was postponed until this year.. WTH..!! But still ya.. I played as Goalkeeper in my team.. The first half we were leading 3-2..

Then come the second half.. They scored back 1 and were level 3-3.. I saved alot of balls today.. Thats what my manager says.. HEHE... But when the referee blows for the full-time.. I was so damn scared but confidence at the same time.. Cause it was penalty kick.. WTH..!! All hope was on me lorr..

The first kick was miss by my team..Aiyo yo.. Then its my turn.. Opponent kick.. And miss also.. Wah.. I was so relieve.. Then my team scored one.. The opponent scored one also.. But i saved one ball.. Hehe.. Luck i guess.. The last kick the opponent miss.. Then it was the last kick.. And the kicker is me.. Aiyo yo.. Nervous abit.. Then.. I kick.. i SCORED... Booya..!! Hehe..

We went to the final.. Woohoo.. Final is going to be on the 23rd.. The opponent magager says to my manager that i was in top form today.. But i don't think so.. Got to do better.. :)

When i reach home tired.. Then went to bath.. Eat.. And lastly.. Im Going to sleep now.. :)

TOODLES...

2009-03-10T09:02:00.000-07:00

HEy.. Im gonna start blogging for today ya.. :)

MORNING:
Nothing much to say.. HEhe.. :)

Afternoon:
Skip 1 class.. That is OSA.. Nothing much since we finish all our test except powerpoint slide which is due next week.. Which i havent even started.. Hehe..

NIGHT:
Reach home around 9pm.. Then watch the movie HELLSING... Quite entertaining lorr.. But still like it.. Nothing much to say today.. :)

Nights to all... :)

2009-03-07T09:02:00.000-08:00

HEy.. Guys.. Wassupp.. Sorry for not updating that much.. Fever is cathing up on me man.. WTH.. Hate it when is happen.. K Go..

Hmm.. Today woke up early.. Because of my stupid fever.. Ya.. The fever caught up with me.. Get it.. Haha.. Ya.. Woke up then do house chores for the first time this year.. Haha.. I know i'm a good example to people around me.. Haha.. Ya Ryte Aidil..

After doing house chores.. Call GF can't get through.. Hp place it where can't get reception.. Smartass.. Wait for her sis to go online on msn.. Then ask her to pass the message that i'm going to town.. (Kidding.. Just want to see her reaction) Haha.. It works.. She call me.. Or rather i call her.. WT.. Tut..

So ya.. She came down to my house at 5p.m.. Damn late.. Still appreciate it.. Ate some food while watching SAW V.. Then guess what.. I ask her to switch off the light.. Instead she go and switch the lappy plug.. The lappy when silence.. Haiz.. Wasted.. What to do.. Just continue watch damn t.v..

Then went out with her family go changi village looking for prostitute.. Haha.. Kidding ya.. Hehe.. Go changi village to celebrate her younger sister 12th birthday.. Ate alot la.. The food is so DAMN nice.. Like want to eat that food i ate again.. Hehe..

By the time we went off from there it was 9+pm.. As usual.. Go home ALONE.. Luckily got ipod.. Hehe.. Fever trying to take over me.. But i'm fighting within me to make t go away.. Slept all the way from tampines to woodlands then alight.. Hehe..

I Guess that s about all ya.. Toodles.. DO Take Care.. Smile Always.. :)

P.s: This Fever IS KILLING ME..!! I need a nurse.. :)

Batman Movie

2009-03-03T07:12:00.000-08:00

Hey... Its only 2 day of this week.. It sucks man.. Faster make it Thursday so that i can take my prac 3.. :)

Well.. Hmm.. Nothing much to say today.. But i will try to say as much as i can okie. Hehe.. :)

Hmm.. Today supposedly start school at 9 but reach at 10.. Cause no OFC.. Hehe.. Cool right.. Haha.. Then boring & more boring things lorr.. Haish..

After school went to polyclinic meet GF cause she went for her check up.. BLa Bla Bla.. Then went to her house.. To take her lappy.. Got virus.. Haha.. Padan muke.. :) by the time i went out is was already 7pm.. Gonna be late lorr when i reach home..

Reach home ready.. First thing i do is lappy.. Yeah.. yesterday didnt get the chance to use lappy.. Daddy using.. Hehe.. Then watch BATMAN BEGINS.. So cool.. I wish i can be like batman.. Hehe.. But what i really want to be like is IRONMAN.. Yeah.. Hehe..

Ya.. Thats all about today.. HEhe.. Toodles.. :)

Editing Picture..

2009-03-01T06:43:00.000-08:00

Hey.. Its me again.. Hehe.. Writing in.. 5.. 4.. 3.. 2.. 1..

Well lets start with yesterday..Didnt do much yesterday.. Just went to my sis house at Redhill to meet my niece.. Miss them soo damn much.. Hehe.. thats all for yesterday.. HEhe.. :)

Today.. Hmm.. Wake up at 12 around there.. Bath & change cause im heading to SSDC just to book a practical.. No slot on fri so have to go on thurs.. WAh.. Clash with my SBM role play.. But what to do.. Sometime u have choose.. :)

After that.. Went to barber had my hair cut.. Hehe.. See u guys with my new hair tomorrow.. Hehe.. No change lorr.. HEhe.. Just see it tomorrow aytes.. HEhe..

Whole day watch movie online.. Movie marathon.. Hehe.. GF mad at me cause i never entertain her.. Haish.. Still what to do.. Just watch more movies.. Hehe.. I watch.. WANTED.. IRONMAN.. YOUNG PEOPLE F***ING.. FRIDAY THE 13 2009.. Thats just about all today i watch.. HEhe.. :) What to do.. Kill boredom.. Hee.. Wee..

After watching online movies.. I watch the unexpected access.. DIE PIG DIE..!! Hehe.. WTH..!! Show us how they slaughter pigs.. Why not shows us how they grow the pig.. Haha.. Lame.. I know.. :) Wee..

Once the show is over.. I continue editting the picture which i just receive from Zura aka MS Chocolate.. Hehe.. Show u later aytes guys.. Thats about all today...

Tc.. SMile always ya.. Thats my quote or something like that.. Hehe.. WEee... Toodles..

The Picture i editted are at the top..^^^^^

WAssup Maneka..

2009-02-27T05:54:00.000-08:00

Hey.. Yall.. Thank goodness its... its.. WEEKEND.. Which means got to sleep late & wake up late also.. Haha..(Lazyass Aidil WTH):)

Well.. Today school was just only 2hr.. Stupid right.. But what to do.. Just come only for the sake of attendence & knowledge lorr.. Hehe.. After school got BL Meeting.. For just 15min around there.. Sorry guys if i went off just like that.. Got bike practical lorr. :)

Soo ya.. Went to take train with Ily cause she is meeting her friend at Dhoby Ghaut.. Guess what.. We saw this guy using a ipod dont know what series.. But he put it in a ziplock bag.. WTH.. Kinda weird but ya.. Weird is the word.. Hehe..

Then when Ily drop off. I was alone lorr :(.. Nevermind.. Got ipod touch.. Hehe.. Reach SSDC damn early.. if i was not mistaken it was 2.30pm. My practical starts at 3.20pm.. Lucky the instructor was nice today.. :) got chance to pass. Hehe..

Got to practice my slope.. Then Figure 8 & lastly Crank course.. Ouh.. I so LOVE Figure 8.. Maybe i dream about it later.. Haha.. Soo ya.. Practice everything for 2 damn hour.. then for the verdict.. I PASS.. BooYa.. Hehe.. Next Prac is Prac 3.. Hehe..

Then walk home alone again.. Not to mention my Ipod.. :) Listen to my favourite song Neyo:MAD.. ya.. By the time i reach home im half dead.. Still need to entertain Gf.. She is gonna be piss off cause im tired no mood to talk.. Just message will do.. She is already piss off lorr..

Im like a tree which people love to cut <<>

Thats about all today.. Sleepy already.. My eyes cant take it anymore.. Tc guys.. LOve ya.. TOODLES.. :)

Gst Soon..

2009-02-26T06:16:00.000-08:00

Just Editted Today By Me.. Hehe.. :)

HEy.. Its another Cuddly lame most boring yet funny & fun to read yall..

Today.. What is so special about today.. Hmm.. Nothing i guess.. Haha..

Well.. Started my day with damnation of school. WAh.. Sometimes i like goin to school.. Sometime like dragging myself to school.. But still.. What to do.. Gotta collect all the knowledge so that i can become the next Big Businessman.. Hell yeah.. Haha..

Ouh ya.. I ate alot today.. But still look the same.. I had 4 piece of toast bread, 2 Boiled egg, Chocolate & Cutlet Rice.. Plus many more..

Finish school at 4.. Waited for GF.. Gentleman mah.. Hehe.. ya ryte.. Whatever Mr Aidil... So ya.. Went to OCK to buy some snacks then sit at Mc for awhile chit chat with GF dont know what the hell is wrong with her.. Hehe.. (Im dead tomorrow)

Nothing much lorr.. Just my daily life of today.. ouh ya.. Nothing actually.. Hehe.. Toodles.. tc my fellow friends.. Smile always.

Wassup man..

2009-02-25T05:59:00.000-08:00

HEy.. Mr Cuddly is back after a very very long & hard day of school.. I know u guys miss me.. Just bare with me aytes.. Hehe.

Well.. Wake up early today.. Dont know why, dont want to know either.. Since i wake up early.. Bath slowly, all do slowly.. dont want to be early or late for school.. But just nice.. yeah man.. Took the usual 969 bus to school.. Played this cool game called PATAPON.. Love it alot..

Reach school straight go to class.. First class was SBM followed by OSA then S&W1.. Nothing much to do lorr.. Usual routine which lead to boring life.. How i wish everyday is a clumsy day.. Then can laugh at myself.. Haha..

After school go straight home.. Tired with school.. Brain need to rest.. Hehe.. Half-way in the hiway.. It rain heavily.. WAH.. Kept thinking how to reach home like that.. dah cool2 then dont want to be drench in the rain.. Haha.. Then it struck me.. Can borrow umbrella from the bubble tea shop.. Hehe.. See.. So street smart.. Ya ryte mr Aidil..

Reach home ready.. Guess what did i look for.. Drum roll please.. Drrrr.. FOOD.. Ya.. Hungry lorr.. I know i eat alot.. But still have the same skinny but a little bit hot body.. Haha..

Soo.. Ya.. Just cover about all.. Tc Guys.. Smile Always ya.. Toodles

wah piang eh..

2009-02-19T07:09:00.000-08:00

Hey.. Wassup guys.. Sorry for not blogging for a long.. Long time.. been busy with alot of school stuff. Life.. Family.. Etc..

See liyana.. I update my blog.. If not im at ICU ready eh.. Haha..

Well.. nothing much to say.. But new things to tell u guys.. I have been assign as the nwew class rep.. WTH.. Still i like it.. Haha.. Have the privilage of.. I dont know what is it.. Hehe.. Bryan & lisa have been sack.. :( replace by me & nabilah.. :)

Hmm.. reach school as usual.. nothing much.. just that during OSA.. Thas DAMN stupid person do a spot check of attire at our class.. WTH.. Nothing to do then spot check on us.. pfft.. bunch of nothing to do people..

Then after that had SBM.. Stress man.. Had to do most of the things myself.. Had a little help from Henry & Ily. OFC class cancel today.. Damn bored.. Finish school early.. then meet up with my BL friends.. Haha..

Waste time walking here & there.. Laughing & disturbing this special someone who like to MELATAR.. I dont know whats the word in english.. Hehe.. After that met GF walk home together.. When i reach home.. Guess what do i do.. Straight to LALALAND.. Haha.. Tired lorr.. What to do.. :)

K then.. I guess thats about all for today.. Tc guys & gerls.. Smile always.. Toodles.. :)

Tiring 2.4

2009-02-11T06:47:00.000-08:00

Hey yall.. Sorry for not blogging for the past 4 days.. been very very busy & tired due to school..

Well.. Lets get started ya..

Today not much lorr.. But have been drinking lots of mineral water because we are going to have our napfa test later.. So have to drink lots of water.. Scared dehydrate.. Haha.. Hmm.. Went to school late 15min.. Damn.. Dont like to be late.. Thats all.. No offence ya.. After that go for lunch ate 2 plain prata.. Have to budget.. Because i will be starting my practical for bike soon.. Its been awhile since my last practical.. Haha..

Then comes the 2.4km which has been bothering me since last week.. All ready to run & FAIL.. Haha.. Passing time is 13min flat & below.. Guess what was my timing.. *Drum Roll*.. 14.30sec.. Haha.. I fail lorr.. Purposely cause i dont want to go for the cross country tomorrow.. Lazy.. But still tired lorr.. Completed laps ok.. Not my type of things.. Hehe..

After school meet GF go Pie Kia ate some pie.. Chit chat abit.. Just chilling lorr.. Since got nothing to do.. Then walk her home.. Gentleman mah.. Haha..

Ouh ya.. By the way.. I got the highest mark on OSA test.. Damn proud of myself.. Even though the test is not challenging enough.. Still hard lorr. Haha.. My mark was 99/100.. Cool right.. I know.. Some of my classmate also got 99/100.. Im proud of them also.. Main thing is nobody fail.. Im proud of that to.. Haha..

K then.. Guess i have to knock off for now.. Damn sleepy already & tired from the 2.4km.. Damn.. Who invented this 2.4.. Tc.. Smile Always.. Toodles Guys & Gerls..

Best Day Ever..

2009-02-06T08:36:00.000-08:00

Hey.. Hey.. Hey.. Cuddly is here.. TGIF.. Woohoo.. Its going to be a long.. Long.. Long story ya.. So please keep awake at it.. Haha..

Today is the last day of the week.. Thats 1 of the good things.. Lesson are boring though.. But still educating.. Hehe.. Cant wait for the BL Bonding later.. Its my CCA stuff.. Hehe.. Hmm.. First Lesson was CRN.. Just 1hr.. that long.. Then After that would be OFC.. So.. Every friday.. I will only come to school for 2 1/2hr only.. WTH ryte.. But still fun.. Hehe..

Finish with school stuff already.. After school went to eat at cafe 1 with Ily, Lisa, Nad, Kai Xiang and Irfan.. All are my classmate ok.. I ate beef steak pasta.. So are ily.. While Lisa ate chicken cutlet i think.. Kai xiang and Irfan ate nasi goreng mama.. Haha.. Poor irfan.. The food is damn spicy.. He cant take it.. Hehe..

Then waited until 2.30 for the BL Bonding.. Feeling so anxious.. Thinking what will we do..

The time has come.. Is was so much fun.. Fun.. And lots of FUN.. We played games.. Like the poison river.. It was lame.. Then we played the farm game.. 3 team name cow.. chipmunk and pig.. Have to find each other.. Lame also.. Hehe.. The best game was the BOMB game.. which is played with water bomb.. Go Chickedik..!! Hehe.. So fun.. But yet tiring..

After the BL Bonding.. Got a meeting for about 5min lorr.. Then after that meet GF.. Cause i promise her that i meet her after my cca.. Even though im tired.. Im still willing to ya.. Hehe.. Ate sushi.. Bla Bla BLa.. Yada Yada Yada.. Hehe.. Nothing much after that ya.. Just that today is a fun but tiring day..

Ouh ya.. Tomorrow maybe going to pasir ris.. camping and stuff.. Another story to be told tomorrow or sunday ya.. Do take care guys & gerls..

Thanks for making me enjoy my day.. BLs.. I guess thats all for today.. Toodles..

Appreciated doesnt have to be seen of think. It has to be felt..

Middle Week.. Aiyo yo..

2009-02-04T05:24:00.000-08:00

Hey.. Sorry didnt blog yesterday.. Feelind damn tired lorr.. Reach home late some more.. Aiyo yo.. Nevermind.. Yesterday was yesterday.. Today is today ryte.. Hehe..

Well.. I feel like not going to school.. Damn sleepy & a little bit lazy lorr.. But still i find some energy in me to go to school.. Don't want to fail or make my parents mad lorr.. Hehe.. Didnt do mohawk hair today.. Because im using headphone instead of earpiece.. Look smart & cute.. Thats what my OSA teacher said.. Mrs Ng.. Love her alot.. Hehe..

Feeling half dead by the time i reach school.. Ate my usual breakfast food(Cheese Hotdog Bread) Then waited for my usual friends.. Bla Bla Bla.. Yada Yada Yada.. 2pm already.. Hehe.. supposedly to have 2.4km today.. But luckily it rain.. thank god.. Still have to do the pull up & shuttle run.. chicken feet la those two station.. Hehe..

Meet my GF dont know want to go where.. Dont know why she skip class also.. Tsk3.. Not good you know.. Hehe.. Walk home with her.. Already at my peak of sleeping when walking.. But have to stay cool.. I dont know why.. But after school.. I will always feel tired.. Is there a way to heal this thing.. Hmm....

Then followed her father go to COURTS to collect the tiny mini laptop which i think its useless.. No offence eh.. Hehe.. Tomorrow is my exam already.. So fast ryte.. What to do.. Wish me luck aytez guys & gerls..

Thanks for reading my post & viewing my blog.. Please leave This blog with a smile on your face because Mr Cuddly always says.. SMILE ALWAYS.. Hehe.. Toodles..

Only The First Day of The Week..!!

2009-02-02T08:04:00.000-08:00

Wee... Hey guys... Im back.. Waddup.. Waddup.. Hehe.. Im feeling damn tired today but i will post.. Haha..

Hmm.. Today is only the first day of the week & im already feeling half dead.. Soo tired lorr.. Wake as usual.. Going to school .. everything is as usual.. But today i kinda don't feel like myself.. Don't know why.. But i feel like im gonna be dead soon.. No energy to walk or talk..

Ouh ya.. At OFC class this little gerl nadiah sat beside me.. & began to tickle me. i know i have ticklish body.. Then we started tickling each other.. Like childish people.. Haha.. Damn her.. Will get you tomorrow or the next day..

After that is break time.. Stupid cafes build so small. Not even a place to sit.. Be it cafe 1 or cafe 2.. Must upgrade lorr.. So that many student can sit & eat easily.. Haiyo.. Decided not to eat.. Skip SBM just to eat.. atlast there is a sit.. But have to skip class.. Aiyo yo..

Then go LLA lesson half way run with my partners in crime.. Ily & Kiela.. Haha.. So boring la the lesson.. The teacher also boring.. Aiyo yo.. Hehe.. Go sit at forum talk crap all the way.. Hehe.. The three od us are actually waiting for our frineds or special someone.. Sit around 4.45 then went of to East Point with GF & her friends.

She at this cheese pasta something.. Damn nice.. But acted cool.. By giving no reaction.. Haha.. Took alot pictures of her & her friends.. Soo the belos. Haha.. Then after that go sit at this shelter thingy.. Talk more crap.. & decide to follow ina go popular.. Wana buy books.. Im like a quarter dead already lorr..

Then the last thing is to search for my new specs.. With her.. Found this 1 specs looks nice on me.. Then i ask her to decide lorr.. GF horr.. hehe.. Happy. with everything.. Sit down some place & clear things out between me & her.. Hug2.. Aww.. I love Hugging her.. Soft mah.. Haha.. By the time i reach tampines interchange is about 10.30. Imagine what time i reach home.. Hehe.. But its ok.. Sacrifice mah.. Hehe..

K la.. I wish to write more.. But damn sleepy already.. Don't want to be late for school tomorrow. Hehe.. Smile always.. Toodles.. Lotsa love.. Cuddlies.. Hehe..

Still Another Boring Day..

2009-02-01T07:32:00.000-08:00

Hey.. Yall Mr cuddly is back.. Let's get started ya.. Hehe...

Hmm... Today wake up quite early.. Cause my classmate by the name of NADIAH message me.. If not wake up late ready.. aiyo yo.. Then meet up with her at Causeway Point to do our SBM project.. Just imagine me & her only doing it.. What to do.. The credits will be ours *evil laughter*.. First got to go Long John.. Cause i was damn hungry lorr. Will always be hungry.. Hehe.. Im the only person that ate. she's not eating.. Don't know why.. Don't Care.. Hehe..

Then go to civic library to do our SBM project.. Well she came up with the idea while i was reading history about japan.. I LOVE JAPAN.. yeah.. Hehe.. i learn alot by reading it.. After reading then only she came up with something called CURROS or something like that.. it look nice to eat. easy to make.. Nice thinking nad.. Haha..

Then after the boring day at civic library.. went to Causeway to look for my running shoe to wear for this coming NAPFA test.. damnation.. After that guess what.. Went home lorr.. Hehe.. No plan.. No money.. Stress liao.. But its ok.. Cuddly will go through everything.. Hehe..

K la.. Thats all for today my little friends.. Mr cuddly always says.. SMILE ALWAYS.. HEhe.. Toodles..

Another Boring Day..

2009-01-29T05:56:00.000-08:00

Hey.. Yall.. Cuddly Here.. Hehe..

Today.. Hmm.. Whats so not good about today is just another boring day.. Whats so good about today is, i got to meet my friends. Hehe.. I love my friends & her.. Hehe..

Today.. What did i do.. hmm.. Ouh ya.. Guess what.. I woke up late today for the first time in my life that i woke up late. Supposedly to go out from my house at 8.15, but woke up at 8.20.. Late ryte. i know.. All were in a rush.. Bathing.. Setting up bed.. etc.. But guess what again.. I wasnt late for school.. Haha.. early 15min, wth! i know. Still got time to go toilet to set my hair. Hehe.. must look smart with my mohawk hair..

Hmm.. Didnt do much today.. Just that i forget to bring my wallet.. Feeling damn hungry. Feels like eating all my friends.. Haha.. No la.. I won't eat them. Maybe i bbq them.. MUAHAHA..

Good thing is that today i get to go home early.. WOohoo.. Not like yesterday. Damn late. tsk3.. Then got stress editing my blog... But manage it though.. Hehe.. Now feeling a little bit sleepy.. think going to doze off soon..

What a Tiring Day..

2009-01-28T08:11:00.000-08:00

Hey.. Hoo... Sorry yesterday didnt blog.. Bla Bla Bla..

Well.. Today is the first day of school since the long & long weekends.. Meet all my classmates.. Mish them soo much.. hehe.. Nothing much to do lorr at school.. Just lesson.. Lesson & more lesson.. Bored i tell ya.. But what to do.. Future ryte.. Hehe..

Then met her.. Missing her since.. Smile all i can say when i saw her.. So happy maybe.. Because she is still in a haywire.. Don't know whats wrong with her.. Maybe depress of something.. Well, just take care yourself aytes..

Went home with her.. Waited about 1hr. Not long lorr. Use to it already. Hehe.. Then go library drop book. Bla Bla Bla.. Went her house to eat a add new psp game(Dj Max 3) my favourite.. Hehe..

Damn tired lorr.. Reach home at 11.15.. Then got to help with my aunt with something. By the time im quarter dead ready.. Guess that all for today ya..

Cuddly Buddy always says.. SMILE always.. HEhe.. Toodles

One Day Has Past.

2009-01-26T09:46:00.000-08:00

HEy.. yall.. Cuddly here

What a tiring day today & not forgetting emo day.. Haiz.. Well.. went to bbq at Changi Beach with my dad, Sis & her soul with me.. Take 969.. Damn crowded with chinese.. as if im in china or something. Hehe..

Reach at tampines interchange. reminded me of the path or walkway we walk together. feeling a little bit emo. Still can hang on. Go to MC ate some fries & drank my favourite drink STRAWBERRY milkshake.. While waiting for abg zain to fetch us..

When he arrive. i can't believe my eyes. his car is damn hot. the interior is damn cool. i feel like driving it.. tapi tk lepas. hehe.. He drive damn fast. i love it.. wish i can ride with him again. reach changi beach.. The wind so damn strong & cold. i forgot to bring my sweater..

Sat at the rock alone. thinking & thinking & keep on thinking about her.. feeling damn emo now.. like shouting.. but can't. Later people think im crazy or something. Hehe. Had some fun & game. Bored..

Guess What. She message me.. I feel relief.. Damn relief.. happy.. Bla Bla Bla. reach home. tired & sleepy.. Still loving u baby.. Hehe..

Will i get over myself

2009-01-25T21:03:00.000-08:00

HEy.. Its me aidil here..

Having problem with my gf. i don't know what to do.. She wanted a time out or a break up. i feel lonely without her. i feel insecure without her. i feel sad without her.. all this while.. my life has got to be with her.. i will only love her & only her. :(

Shes like my heart.. without her i can't beat. Shes like my air.. without her i can't breath. Shes like my mind. Without her i cant think. Shes like my soul. Without her i cant find myself. She is like my life. my heart. my soul. My wife :(

I can't even sleep last night. thinking bout her. what is she thinking. is she fine. i don't even want to think about myself animore. all i know my mind right now is thinking bout her. Haiz.. why does is have to be this way. Been listening to sum 41 song WITH ME. even though it is sad. it remind me of her eyes. her smile. her face. her touch. her laughter..

I dont know what else to do. its like i lost my life. lost everything. Siti Nuryurhaynis. i will always love u. my heart is open only for u. tc.